Taking My Life Back!!

As I sat in my doctor’s office yesterday and she handed me a script for this neuropathy pain, it struck me….I have 2 choices here.

  • I can take the easy route and go on the medication, continue to eat crap food and go about my life.
  • OR, I can try everything in my power to get back to a stable pain level through diet & exercise.

You see her exact words to me were, “Angie I think you were able to stabilize the inflammation in your body and that’s why your neuropathy was so well controlled, but once you started this new diet (which I hate btw) you enflamed your nerves and now you are paying for it”.

Great, so the little detour I took from my clean eating plan is now killing my body, literally. Was I willing to live on medication to enjoy unhealthy foods?  Absolutely NO!!!!

So I’ve decided to hold off on the prescription medication for now.

I see a neuromuscular doctor in Houston on June 26 and I’ll defer to him.

In the meantime, my plan is to use herbal natural supplements and go back to eating 100% clean to see if I can cut down  this inflammation and nerve pain.

I was so desperate the other day that I joined a FB peripheral neuropathy group and while it was very helpful, I was shocked at the number of people who live with this type of pain and readily admit that “oh yeah I stopped sugar for a while and it helped, but I’m a sugaraholic!!” What the heck?

I get it though, there was a time in my life where it was just easier to pop a pill and live on sugar, but wow I’m no longer there and praise God for that!! Because without His grace and willingness to open my eyes and show me a different path, I would just curl up in a ball in my bed, over medicate myself and sleep my life away so the only real option I see at this point is to try to get my pain under control by eliminating the following things from my diet:

  1. Refined sugars, no this does not include fruit, but fruit will be a take it one day at a time and see if my body allows me to eat it.
  2. Dairy, goodbye Greek yogurt I will always love you, but you are a demon to my body
  3. Grains, for now while I wait to work with the nutritionist in Houston. I’m eliminating grains primarily to keep my daily carb count under 50grams a day.

These are the big three…..

I’ll be increasing my protein and green veggies and pushing water.

Oh and the other “good” thing that has come from all of this is that I am no longer feeling obsessed about hitting a certain “goal weight” by a certain day. It’s amazing how pain can really put goals into perspective.

My primary goal for having the sleeve surgery was never a number on the scale, was never to look good naked, was never to feel good about myself.

My primary goal then and now was and is HEALTH!!!!!!! I spent several months losing sight of this fact. I spent months comparing myself to other sleevers and their weight loss achievements and never really embracing my journey or my accomplishments. But you know what?

At the end of the day, I kinda rock 🙂

I have managed to fundamentally reset my nervous system through diet and exercise, I’ve managed to control migraines that used to keep me completely debilitated. I’ve taken myself out of the running for developing diabetes. I’m no longer on 5 blood pressure medications and I’m no longer on cholesterol medication. That’s pretty friggin great!!

I’ve done a lot of work in this short year’s time. So my aim continues to be my health. I want to enjoy being a wife and a mommy. I want to be actively involved in the daily moments. I want to be able to go to the gym everyday and not feel so weak while lifting weight or unable to walk an hour on the treadmill.

I want to live.

I want to be pain free.

These are my new goals, the scale will reflect my health, whatever number that may be…….

As a sidenote: if you are interested in what I’ll be eating from here on out, two things, I’ll be posting pictures to Instagram and Facebook. (I’ll be eating 6 small meals a day to average 1450 calories), AND if you are interested in specifics of my meal plan, leave a comment and I’ll do a blog post…..thanks for reading and following my journey!!

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