Apparently I’m the world’s slowest learner….I mean seriously I’m hoping at some point in my life the hard lessons I’ve learned along the way will just click and I won’t have to repeat the same torturous steps over and over again.
That day wasn’t within 24 hours by golly…..thankfully it did “click” yesterday and I didn’t go around the mountain for months wondering what was going on. So I guess the process is getting alittle faster, so to speak
What am I talking about?
Oh MMM GEEEE, no joke,
Sugar is the devil!!!!!!!!!
I’ve known this for quite some time, but it’s a hidden little bugger that creeps in silently and then waits to build up in my system before it attacks……ugh
So here’s my background…..
Prior to my sleeve surgery in Feb. 2014, I was a sugar junkie. A lot of the medication side effect I was on for migraines, would cause intense sugar cravings so I would indulge in eating whatever whenever I was craving. Soda, cookies, candy, chips, yep I ate it all and I gained 150lbs in no time flat.
Then I started my preop diet and went through sugar withdrawal and yes it was hell on earth, BUT what I noticed after detoxing and avoiding sugar like the plague was that I started having less migraine pain.
Then I made a big jump in Sept. 2014 and I completely revamped my eating habits. I went from eating a slightly healthier version of food (IE: no more cookies, candy, soda, but still eating pretzels, an occasional donut and Quest bars) to completely clean, nothing processed, real food. My goal at that point was to get to 100lbs lost so I was willing to do whatever needed to happen to get those 100lbs off by my 1 year post op date. So when I hit it, I started to question if I wanted to continue to eat this way for the rest of my life. You see I was uber strict with myself, food had lost any form of enjoyment. I was just eating robotically to get to my goal and then I didn’t know what I wanted to do or IF I could continue eating that way for life. So I started experimenting with ADF and sure it was fun, I started eating pretty much whatever I wanted on my high days and once again started eating crappy foods, counts, muffins, chips, I was losing weight so didn’t think too much about it. In fact I thought, “Wow could this be my new way of eating?”
My conclusion? Absolutely NO way NO how NO NO NO!!! It is not my new way of eating
Well about a week ago, I started having some really weird pain in my body. No migraines, but weakness and weird pain in my feet. Now pain in my feet is nothing new. I have some neuropathy following my stroke so I just assumed it was that. Didn’t think any more about it until 2 days ago.
Two days ago, the neuropathy pain was starting to travel up my legs and started mildly in my hands and even my face.
Then yesterday the neuropathy pain, that typically rears its ugly head in the evening, started plaguing me during the day, in my feet, legs, hands, arms, face and now my back, what the heck?
I started doing research on peripheral neuropathy as I just assumed it was all due to the stroke in 2009, that is until I saw my neurologist this week and he tested me and said NO the type of neuropathy I have is NOT stroke related. So he referred me out to Baylor Medicine Neuromuscular clinic, which I have an appointment on June 26. So I am baffled. I do not have diabetes (another cause of PN)
Last night the pain was so intense I started crying out to God. “God I can’t take this pain any more, please show me what to do or where to turn?”
I was desperate and almost in tears lying in bed. I came across 2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
But what did this mean?
I had become my own worst enemy….I was trying to fuel my body with what I thought were “fun” foods but were in essence causing me debilitating pain….again. This thought didn’t click though until I texted my mother-in-law and sister-in-law asking them to pray for me
My mother-in-law texted back that she was concerned about the new diet I was attempting and “could it be your diet Angie?”
That did it for me, I had already been thinking of going back to my old eating plan to lose the last 30 lbs but when she sent this text to me I thought, YES I need to see if going back to how I was eating would somehow stop the pain that I’m currently in!?
So as of today, I’m going back to 5 clean meals a day. Healthy foods, nothing refined, no sugar, no white flour, no white potatoes. I don’t know if this will eliminate the pain that I’m in, but I have to try. If you think if me today, please say a prayer for me as I go back through sugar detox….again….ugh
Pain is no joke and if I can at the least minimize it It will be worth it!!