Yesterday was my wrap up session with my counselor. It was bittersweet. It was good though to look back over what my original goals were when we first met. My goals in March 2014 were:
- To lose weight
- To establish healthy boundaries in my life
- To get healthy
So a little over a year later I am well on my way to succeeding in all three areas…
When I started with my counselor I weighed 280, today I flux between 208-212, so I’m down 68lbs in that time frame……check
Also when I started I was a basket case in dealing with people. I allowed people, especially family members to bulldoze me over, whether in conversation or face-to-face interaction. I used to worry if someone was upset and if peace was disrupted. Today I have come to great terms with the fact that
A. it’s not my job to make sure everyone is ok
- I no longer allow people to deal with me in unhealthy ways……this is obviously still a work in progress, but I have so much more peace than I ever did before.
My counselor said, “Angie it seems to me like you don’t need people to be ok or even not in turmoil anymore” And she’s really right. I don’t know when the switch happened, but I am just no longer willing to allow the emotions and attitudes of others to rule or even ruin my peace. My peace is to precious to me, it’s not up for negotiation like it used to be! And if I got nothing else out of my counseling time, THIS would have been all worth it!!
Over the course of the last year, I’ve learned so much about myself…good, bad and ugly, but it’s been so worth it! I hope once we are settled in Houston to re-establish with a Christian counselor, but we’ll see, time will tell J