Masterpiece

So I’m highly frustrated today. I decided to stop weighing daily once I hit 208 so last Saturday when I hit 208.6, I stopped weighing daily with the objective of weighing twice a week. So today was my next weigh in and yep, I’m up, up to 210.8 and I am beyond frustrated!!!!! I mean seriously HOW is this possible? I haven’t eaten enough in the last 5 days to GAIN a pound, so what the heck?? Now I’m seriously trying to NOT panic. My idea prior to our Houston trip was to start fasted cardio once I got home. The only problem with fasted cardio is that I would have to lift weights in the afternoon and I’ll be honest I just don’t have the time. So I’m currently researching intermittent fasting. I’ve decided today that I will stick with my commitment of only changing ONE THING at a time. So today started fasted working out with NO change, other than to resort back to how I was eating, to my diet. So I’m giving this a try for 2 weeks and then will evaluate at that point. This weight loss dance really ticks me off!!

In the meantime, I did start listening to an old playlist today in the gym. I had forgotten that I added the Jessie J song, “Masterpiece”. It was a hidden gem today as I almost cried as I listened to the lyrics. But the lyrics that really got me are these:

Uphill battle
I look good when I climb
I’m ferocious, precocious
I get braggadocios

 

Yes!!! Every day feels like an uphill battle. This struggle to lose more weight feels daunting and at times unachievable.

I still fall on my face sometimes
And I can’t colour inside the lines
‘Cause I’m perfectly incomplete
I’m still working on my masterpiece
And I, I wanna hang with the greats
Got a way to go, but it’s worth the wait
No, you haven’t seen the best of me
I’m still working on my masterpiece

 

I do, I feel like I fall on my face more than I care to admit, BUT I am and will continue to work on my masterpiece……

Like I said a hidden gem today, one that I desperately needed. Today I’m clinging to the fact that while the struggle is real, the journey is a marathon and not a sprint!!

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