We made it home after our 4 day trip to Houston. Wow it was such an amazing trip. I absolutely love Houston and I can’t wait to live there full time!!
I learned so much about myself during that trip. You see, whenever we’ve taken extended trips anywhere, I’ve been so anal retentive about my schedule, food, weight loss etc that I haven’t been able to really relax and not be so uptight. Over Christmas we made a trip back home and I was so freaked about being “off” that I prepped as much food as I could and took it with me, along with my scale. I weighed incessantly, worrying about potentially gaining weight and not hitting my goals. I weighed and measure every morsel that I put in my mouth. I was wound tight! So fast forward a few months and I’ve learned a ton, but it took this trip to show me what I’ve learned.
Since I don’t have an immediate goal of: “I need to lose 30lbs by x date” this has taken a TON of pressure off myself to sit back and realize that the 50lbs I want to lose WILL happen and there doesn’t need to be a due date. Because of this and because I knew that once we got home I would be switching up my diet and exercise routine, it took a ton of pressure off myself. So I enjoyed 4 days of hotel/carb loaded breakfasts. I mean I ENJOYED them, I had muffins, English muffins, eggs, yogurt, fruit, and peanut butter and last night I had ice cream….lots and lots of ice cream for dinner. Sure I felt horrendous afterward AND I won’t ever do that amount again. I enjoyed it for the moments before it made me utterly sick. Had I had some crazy goal in mind, I would NEVER have indulged in that way. But since I’ve laid off myself a bit, I was able to not worry too much about calories, protein intake, etc. I also didn’t work out ONCE. This, my friends, was HUGE. I just didn’t stress about it. I realize I’ve probably gained a little bit, but again I’m not worried about it. In all honesty, I haven’t taken a real break from exercise in about a year and from nutrition like this in about 5 months, so it was needed and I enjoyed every ounce of it!! Now will that become a way of life? Nope not at all. It was just for a 4 day season that’s it. BUT what it did help me discover is that I’m just not going to sweat the small things anymore. I still have 50lbs to lose and I know I will get there, I’m not worried about that at all. I feel like I’m finally getting some balance in my life and I like it!