Ugh I hate to admit it, but I feel like I’m on the cusp of being back at the drawing board of nutrition….AGAIN
I don’t know if I’m really there or if my surgeon really just freaked me out when he said I’ve maxed out on my weight loss?
Not sure, but I’m here nonetheless.
So some back story, if you will
Last summer, I stalled losing any weight for THREE months…..yes I lost crazy crazy inches and yes I was lifting weights, but I wasn’t doing ANY real cardio, so my weight loss completely stopped. It was soooo frustrating, there were times I cried. There were times I thought, “what have I done to my body, I’ve chopped up my guts for what?” “50 lbs? The thought of 100lbs lost felt like a steel mountain to climb and I have no rope to even start.
Then God in His infinite wisdom sent a friend into my life who helped me revamp my diet. With adding things like eating 5 meals a day instead of 4 and including green vegetables instead of pretzels and adding an hour of cardio a day (incline walking, which I love/hate btw) the scale started moving again. I was thrilled!!!
Then I finally got to my 100lbs lost, my first BIG weight loss goal, sure it took me all of a year, BUT the important thing is I got there!!!
Then I had my 1 year post op appointment and BAM I was thrown off AGAIN.
While my surgeon was thrilled with my loss, see the prediction for my starting weight was that I’d max out around 222, that this is the “norm” and when I weighed in at his office I was 209, so he was thrilled. BUT I’m not thrilled, I desperately want to be UNDER 200, In my mind my goal number is around 157. I’d like to get as far away from 200 as possible, within reason that is. So no 199 isn’t going to do it for me, I don’t even think 180 will, but we’ll see. In the meantime, the stupid scale is fluxing between 207-210 depending on the day.
So here’s my dilemma…..
I’m one year post op with 50 more lbs to lose. NO I don’t have a time frame to lose it in, other than this year, 2015. I think that’s realistic to lose 50lbs in a year. Anyway, I’ve increased my cardio, incline walking and added a second cardio session 3 days a week. I was hoping by doing this it would help regulate my blood pressure. Anyway, on those days, I burn (along with weight lifting) roughly 3000, well burning that many calories means I am HUNGRY on those days, BIG TIME, which means sticking to the bariatric calorie deficit of 1100 calories just isn’t realistic. So I’m lost…..again……trying to figure out how many calories to eat so that my body will lose weight again.
So I’m doing nutrition research today with hopes that tomorrow to increase my caloric needs. This may mean adding a 6th meal to my regimen, I don’t know yet, but I’m desperately trying to NOT be afraid as I experiment this next week……UGH if you pray, pray for me because I want to approach these next 50lbs with a different mindset. I don’t want to be afraid of the calorie number anymore. I want to eat healthy (which I am doing) and eat for what my body needs to lose again, but I am not sure how that looks.
OK so that’s it for today….thanks for following my crazy journey!!