Identity

Who do you identify with?

A person? Situation?

Circumstance?

Gender?

Race?

Religion?

Our Identity shapes us to our core.

It directly affects how we think, feel and act. So it’s important to be in touch with our identity, don’t you think?

As a Believer of Jesus Christ, I identify with Him as a person and as His follower. Sure I fail miserably most days, but by believing in Him, I choose to focus on His Word, the Bible and allow that to transform my thinking about myself. Yes this has and continues to be an ongoing process. Like I said, I fail miserably most days.

I am a very type A personality. I easily identify with this characteristic. Like I do being a female, a mother, a wife, a daughter, and a sister. Because I’m type A, I tend to push myself a little further and get really discouraged and downcast when or if I fail to obtain that final push. For example, cardio…….I am not a big fan, but I do it because it’s good for me. When I started back doing cardio in August 2014, I was lucky to burn 600 calories between the treadmill and bike. I burned more on days I ran, but that was only 3 times a week. Now it’s Dec.1 and I’m walking on an incline of 12 and this week increased my speed to 3.8 for one hour. I burned 1111 calories in an hour!!!!! Now where the rub for me comes I for me is being satisfied with that type of a calorie burn and not feeling like a failure if I don’t hit 1200. See what I mean….type A. I fight against this DAILY. I’m trying to enjoy the process as I move forward, but it’s a struggle. For example, I was easily losing 8lbs a month for a while, now I’m only losing between 6-7……makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong. Even though I KNOW that I’m eating healthy and being consistent in my exercise.

Will I ever be satisfied?

It scares me that I won’t. I guess my fear of being satisfied is that I’ll become complacent and possibly start putting weight on again. I think this would destroy me. So I guess it’s true…..healthy is to take one day at a time. I’m learning this VERY slowly, but I am learning it. It seems like a hard lesson, but I’ll get there.

Recently, I had a friend whom I really respect send me a note on Facebook saying how proud he is of me and that I’ve proven myself a fighter. I was dumbfounded and kinda blown away because he’s someone that I really respect, a good friend. Anyway, I think I was most struck by the fact that someone else sees something about me that I don’t see about myself.

At the end of the day, he’s right. I AM a fighter and I HAVE proven to myself that I want this BAD….this being HEALTH.

So today I take on the identity of a fighter….a champion…..an athlete. Today those words describe who I am!  Who are you today?

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